Twink4muscle, 19

I found out I was gay when I was 4 years old. Well, I wasn't open about it either, mainly because of what my parents would say, and of course, religion. I've also experienced internalize homophobia, that I would use the term "bisexual" to hide my gayness, and boast that "I can date whatever I want." Funny how this was before I know the word "pansexual." When I got into a heated controversy in highschool, I came to the realization that I certainly am gay. And so, I slowly came out to my close friends eventually. Then, at the age of 16/17, I've officially came out to my mother, and later my father. It was freeing, being able to open up with being gay. I get to improve my self-awareness, and even my academics too. I even got more friends, and meet other queer folks too! I get to be more vulnerable and open. And I came to understand that it's also nice to connect with others who share you experience. Whether they be gay, lesbian, bi, trans, everyone in the community.Extra bitespite the positivity, I've also became very sensitive in certain topics, especially about LGBT in general. Sometimes I'd even overthink about... everything. Even my orientation, I would be like "what if I was actually bi?" And sorry to say it but...I hate it. I don't see myself being in a romantic relationship with a woman. I would usually get easily uncomfortable by the "I can turn you straight" jokes, or something along that premise. Sadly, it's not uncommon in media, that it even appear in books, movies, art, and games. I even came to the conclusion that some hetero has a fantasy of turning a queer person straight. Same goes with turning straights queer. Actually, both sides are weird, seriously. Note to self, I shouldn't overthink. I'm gay, and I know it, and I'm proud of it. And also try to detox myself off social media sometimes.---As much as I want to open more about myself, and the community, I'll stop it here, for now.