Bsheets88, 36

I havent updated this in ages though it seams often enough people just look at my pics and judge me from there but for the few that do read this, well this is fo you I guess. Let me start of with more of the truth then you probly want to hear. Im a MESS. I dont mean that I dont clean because I do but in the head. Ive been truly in love twice once to a man who left this earth befor his time and one for a man I couldnt tell. He left me becasue I wasnt willing to say I love you to him. Among other things. I lived on the streets from 16-18 and lived many places after that. Ive faced a lot of things at an early age but its made me stronger. I know that by my age I seam younge and to some that might mean I should wait for certin things to happen in my life. I dont feel that way. Somedays I dont know left from right or up from down because the life Ive lived. And if you have problems with the fact that I drink and smoke then Im sorry but its part of me. I want to feel again to be with somone and feel something that Ive never had befor. I want to wake up in the arms (or holding someone) looking into each others eyes. I want to kiss someone and know the moment I do it will be the end of life as I know it. I know who I am and I know what I want but the man that I want I havent seen yet. Is he you? Oh and another thing no matter what the reason Im always willing to talk, though dont ask me for nude pics or h--k ups then I probly just block you. Will thats all I have to say for now.
Friends that well have my back. People that aren't afraid to try new things. Someone that I can be myself with. Someone to hold and hold me. Most people I can have fun with and enjoy life to the fullest. Life only last for so long so its best to enjoy as much of it as you can before its to late.